Emo posts
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Sorry for posting emo-like. I guess I should be used to feeling what I’m feeling now but it’s just as hard as the first time. And my actions are the same as the first time. Except, now, everything is closer yet further, you know? I don’t know… Maybe you don’t, maybe you do.
See, the thing is I’m probably one of the most hopeless romantics ever. Yeah, Hopeless is the keyword in this case. I am completely hopeless when it comes to actually moving on. Yeah, I know I should and my mind can tell me one thing and I will and I do fully believe it in. But, when push comes to shove, I surprise myself by feeling this constriction in my chest and tear duct area and sometimes, I might ever cry. Scratch that. 9 times out of 10 i cry. I don’t know why. I honestly don’t. Maybe I should try to divulge?
Let’s see: I think I’m as far from perfect as possible. That sucks is that I’m around people that are damn near perfect. Of course, there are flaws. But these people are as close to _______ as you can get. Ever. And so, when one perfect friend tells me that another perfect person is preferable, I just break slowly. You know, iceberg style (you’d think that with global warning, I would have just melted away. But what makes it sound loud and makes it a big deal is that it hits close to heart. That maybe I’m just not good enough to do anything or to be compared to anyone. I know I’m not, but who likes to be reminded? I certainly don’t.?
So there. My justification. At least, part of it. It’s just so like me to think of something to say about something in the middle of doing some other thing.
What do you think? Perfection? Possible? Attainable? And really: Does everyone have someone meant for them out there or is every possible person interested going to be a creepy old man staring from across the library?
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You’ll do fine… Trust me the feeling of imperfection is not felt by you alone, I’m guessing everyone does. You’ll do it! Cheers!
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